Dione Seah

2010-03-31T05:54:00.000-07:00

A sign that you're no longer a kid: you enjoy watching channel newsasia

a few days ago i was at home lazing around watching tv. channel 5 was showing teenage mutant ninja turtles the animation movie. all the other channels were showing equally crappy stuff (i dont have cable). so i thought" i gonnna try channel newsasia "
CNN was showing ' the couch ' it's a programme about entrepreneurs , successful people talking about life , business etc while sitting on a comfy couch.
Dr Georgia Lee ( some v famous singaporean aesthetic doctor that pumps botox into faces) and some other short guy who is also her good friend made an appearance on the show.
i was shockingly interested by the show. it was an eye-opener. there is so much to learn from these pple. i like watching CNN now. not because of that one programme. there are so many interesting programmes about entrepreneurs and stuff around the world like japan hour. i actually enjoy watching the news. it's like im becoming like my parents watching cnn after work. i guess there is no need to fight for the remote anymore haha
i feel like my parents i feel so old or grown-up (in a more positive light)
i am off the watching funny videos of "people falling down" on youtube to recapture my youth
ciao

2010-03-21T06:02:00.000-07:00

poly is abt to start in april. i dont wna it to start so soon. i like having hols.
crap i havent post my orange letter . deadline in tmr. this is not awesome. im such a kuku bird.
this week will be so busy gosh so many birthdays and stuff to do.

2010-03-10T08:54:00.000-08:00

Mr ng tc pass away a few days ago. life is so fragile. i never thought he would just go like that this is so unexpected. it made me realise how vulnerable life actually is. anyone at anywhere at anytime can just go like that. it could be a car accident, food poisoning or a heart attack. though in mr ng case it was suicide. i dont know why he did what he did. life is so precious and we only live it once. there is always a solution to every problem. it was so unfortunate. Mr ng was not even 40 and he was the HOD of maths. he had a good job He had a long way ahead of him and a path brightly lit with opportunities. Mr ng, you will be dearly missed by all. if there is someone whom you know, is suicidal or morbidly depressed or suffering from a serious case of depression. show some care and concern to that person, you might be preventing the worst from happening and saving a precious life

rest in peace Mr ng

2010-03-07T04:06:00.000-08:00

“What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? " matthew16:26

“selling our soul” to the devil, the reality is we actually do it. How many times in our lives have we literally sold our souls, turning from what we knew was God’s will to fulfill our will?

Every time you choose to rebel against God, you are selling yourself. The sad reality is that you always sell yourself cheap. What you give up, versus what you get is never worth it. “What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul?”

in the end that if we deal with the devil, we lose. No matter what we may get, it is not worth our soul. Even if we had everything we wanted in this life, even if we had all this world had to offer, what is it worth in the light of eternity?

You see my friend, this life as we know it is very brief. It is but for a season. Eternity is for everlasting. Our focus, our goals, our motivation should not be solely focused on this existence, but our everlasting existence. That is why the most important decision we will ever make in this life is where we will spend that eternity. Let me say, if you do not know where your eternity will be spent, you can make that decision now, by choosing to follow Jesus all the way.

Almost without realizing it, we often sell ourselves to the devil. Just by choosing to go your way instead of God's way is already a form of of selling your soul to the devil, you have rebellied against God by doing so and it just makes it easier for the devil to get a hold of you till one day he will eventually get the whole of you, your soul, your everything ,completely. The Lord told us clearly, you cannot serve two masters. Each time we make a decision, we are choosing which master to serve. We will either serve the god of this world, or the God of the universe. When we choose the god of this world, we are never satisfied, never happy, it never really works. When we serve God Almighty, we then can know the true joy, peace, and abundance this life can offer. It works. I will be praying for you to choose God. You see, when you choose the god of this world, it requires you to pay a price. When you choose God your Creator, the price has already been paid. He says, “Come all, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat!” You see, Jesus already paid the price.

how much sense this makes. i really am guilty for choosing to follow my plans instead of God's plan so many times. maybe the problem is i dont trust enough to let God really use me and take control of my life. and maybe so many other things. i really am trying to really find that balance i need in my life.
Dear Lord i know i dont trust enough to let you completely hold the reins in my life, and i am so sorry for not listening to You so many times. For not taking a breather out of my life to listen to Your soft calming voice. For insisting on my ways and not going Yours. I am so sorry for wanting my independence so much. It's so hard for me to give it up.I want it so bad, it's pains me great deal to give it up.It is probably is the most difficult and hardest thing to do in my life. Lord, i ask for your forgiveness.. Pls help me let learn to trust You abit more each day and completely trust You with my life, by fully surrending the reins into Your hands one day. I pray for that Day of Total Submission to come soon.

in Jesus name i pray .Amen

2010-03-03T10:17:00.000-08:00

a few days ago

me: mummy my left eye v pain, ouch it hurts like hell i dont why. and recently my eyes have been quite dry

mum: i tell u to sleep early and drink water, u dont listen to me

me: MOM. u tell me that all the time. u think if u have a brain tumour or aids u drink water and sleep early and it's ok? u will be alright? i dont wanna listen to u. (annoyed aldy)

mum: did u eat the box of chocolate?

me: yea so?

mum: must be the chooclate!u everyday eat chocolate, so heaty confirm eye pain!

me: so u're saying that eating chocolates give me eye pain is that it?

mum: yesaand i tell u aldy bllah blah blah the usual naggy stuff middle aged woman like to harp on.

me: ARGHHHHHH U MAKE NO SENSE!omg that is the stupidiest thing i ever heard ( #!@$)

and i didnt talk to her for the whole day.

is ur mum like that too? always making no sense at all in response to the things u have just said? does ur mum always blame u when u dont feel well saying it is ur ( insert bad habit that DOESNT in anyway ,could have possibly cause the sickness u're suffering from) that is it the one that is causing the problem and it's all your fault and starts nagging at u till the sun comes up the next morn?

pls tell me this is normal mum behaviour

2010-02-24T07:16:00.000-08:00

sg fertility rate has till an all-time of 1.23 child per woman

my solution to that problem:

take my uterus to make your babies keep it for 10 years OR more.
u get ba by !
i have no period for 10 years. A-W-E-S-O-M-E!

my uterus is for rent!

length of lease: 10 years or maybe more. till the day i decide to have babies when i suddenly realise my biological clock is ticking fast and i start to age rapidly

PRICE: FREE FREE FREE ( what a fantastic deal!? HELLO, take it aldy)

DESCRIPTION OF PRODUCT: ummm let's see.. it's annoying it releases an egg every mth. but it goes to waste everytime because i hav no intention to have a baby. because i do not like babies reason being that they generally scream and cry whenever and wherever they want and they cant clean up after themselves and most of they really annoy me unless they happen to be super cute, super obedient, change their own nappy , get their own food and bathe themselves, dont try to put everything they see into their mouths, do my homework and make me money. then i guess i could like babies, a rare chance ha. right now i have no use for my very efficient uterus. help boost sg fertility rate by renting my uterus.
it has many many eggs can make many many babies. GD VALUE FOR NO MONEY :)))))))))))

so,why would i want to rent out my uterus?

I HATE PERIOD I HATE IT. I REALLY HATE IT.
I REALLLLY HATE ABHOR DETEST LOATHE IT. SOMETIMES I WISH I WASNT A WOMAN.
I HAVE CRAMPS EVERY MTHS. I CANT EAT COLD THINGS. I FEEL FAINTY.
I CANT WEAR WHITE. I FEEL VERY BLOATED. MY LOWER BACK ACHES. I FEEL TIRED. MY CRAMPS HURT LIKE HELL. IT MAKES ME EAT LIKE A P-I-G.
IT MAKES ME FEEL FAT.I FEEL MOODY ALL THE TIME. I GET ANNOYED EASILY.I GET ANGRY VERRRY EASILY. I SCREAM AT PPLE VERY EASILY WHEN IT HAPPENS. IT MAKES ME WANT TO KILL PPLE WHO ANNOY ME. I CANT SWIM. I DONT FEEL LIKE JUMPING OR RUNNING AROUND.IM NOT A NICE PERSON WHEN IT HAPPENS.I GENERALLY DO NOT FEEL VERY GD/HAPPY WHEN PERIOD HAPPENS.

JUST RENT IT ALDY. PLZ

2010-02-23T08:13:00.000-08:00

im have been getting really weird dreams lately.

there was this one dream, i was engaged. i didnt wanna marry the guy cos i didnt like him at all but i some how had to,like i was somehow forced? was like a semi nightmare.

i think maybe im not taking enough vitamins , my brain gives me creepy dreams all the time.

2010-02-22T07:55:00.000-08:00

HOLLLAAA!

i bought dunbbells! 4 pounds each. im gonna build some ladylike muscles hawhaw!
im gonna lift someweights and burn some some fats on my fatty areas. i did 100 arm wraparounds and 100 triceps lifts (should have done biceps lift too!)yesterday so my muscles in my upper body ache like fishballs. im hope im burning the fats and toning my arms. though my arms are thin they are like not toned, no muscular definition? so GOODBYE flabby untoned arms
maybe i have arms as sexy as michelle obama's haha. sexy toned arms here i come :))

her skinny and toned arms are a wow

i have also signed up for belly dancing courses WHOO! FINALLY=)))))
a fun and enjoyable way to burn belly fats and tone my stomach! :)))
lesson starts every friday. from now to the end of april. just before poly starts!! perfectoooo :D
maybe if i really enjoy the class and if the people are nice there maybe i'll continue taking
up bellydancing there :D

2010-02-14T09:58:00.000-08:00

i want this colour of orange in my room

i wna to do in my rm wall

2010-02-09T08:53:00.000-08:00

where did all the cute guys in sg go. did they die somewhere?

2010-02-07T09:23:00.001-08:00

i miss mel
candies
brenda
aby
min
mandy
and all my other friends
i kinda miss beatty i miss running down the stair w mel during recess just so that we dont have to queue so long. i miss doing the most retarded stuff w my frens and laugh till my stomach detach itself, till my tears come out

i miss those days. i really miss my youth. i really feel that time is slipping past my fingers so quickly that i cant even grasp it so i can just sink into that perfect moment for just a little while for it to be etch in my memory then let it go. it's all happening so fast.

life is like a bicycle. you have to keep moving to keep balanced.. how true it that

i miss you candies wherever u are

2010-01-25T08:56:00.000-08:00

my life is pretty boring. i love my job but it's abit boring sometimes at least it's better than waitressing....

i basically sit down the whole day and chat with pple. NO, i dont work for those sleazy chatlines. i survey pple about their visit to the hospital.

i love my job. i love my job.
im just psyching myself cause im having the tuesday blues.

2010-01-18T08:32:00.000-08:00

i am so pissed and annoyed. gosh why is everyone is my hse so shouty and pms-y today. my dad is getting angry and screamy over small shit. my mum is adding fuel to his enormous hot temper. AND he gets redder by the second. i can actually see her smiling when she talks crap that boils everyone's blood. gosh i know she is enjoying this wth she's a mother she's suppose to prevent this. my brother is such a pain in the ass. everyone just likes to say something to make someoneelse's the blood boil with the sole intention of doing so. it's like a fun game. i wanna strangle all of them.

am i the only normal person who shuts up and not say something that will piss someone else off. UGHHH why cant we be a normal family iing the' enjoyand JUST SHUT UP AND NOT TALK TO EACH OTHER IF WE HAVE NOTHING NICE TO SAY ABOUT EACHOTHER. ughhhhh

IS THIS LOGIC SO HARD FOR PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND

correct way:
nothing nice to say= cant stand eachother= dont talk to eachother= WORLD PEACE.

the idiot's way:
cant stand each other= says something stupid to each other =quarrel= shouting match begins= WORLD WAR

i wish i was 18 so i can move out :(
i honestly would rather live alone than with my family. heck, i rather live with any tom dick or harry than my family

2010-01-13T10:34:00.000-08:00

today was awesome. my boss is totally nice. i went for a 4 hr lunch break. ok i told him i had dental at woodland. he even told me to slowly take my time.
i lunch-ed with the gang xept mel because she couldnt wake up. we had lunch at jack's place marina square
sad i had to go back early to the freezing office

2010-01-11T10:35:00.000-08:00

L1r5= 15
L1r4=11

3As and 4Bs

11-2=9

gosh i really didnt expect b4 for english. like wth?i was so shocked. ms shasumudin was expecting an A from me. i feel quite bad letting her down. i guess i wrote a really terrible letter or something.

on the bright side
i wasnt expecting A1 for geo considering screwed up the last part.mrs ng really is a good geo teacher.

i guess it's a compromise.

though im a little disappointed, but i made it to the international businesss at ngee ann poly!

i made it, thanks Lord

thanks for everything:)

2010-01-10T11:38:00.000-08:00

u know there is one thing we all men should know: men cannot fight against God and win.
this meaning :life wont would go according to what u want all the time, it will go accord to what God wants it to be.
yup it was said today during sermon. and mel just give me a short recap of it too.
so whatever the results maybe i think im just gonna trust it to the Lord.
mel told me God's plans dont just revoke all effort u put in la
so im good.worries taken away. i studied really hard for my o levels. i dont think i have to consider nursing or some electrician course thing. yuck gosh im was literally expecting all sorts of shitty outsomes like my score to be over 20. wth, i worried for nothing.
thanks Lord, my worries have been put side
thanks mel :)

2010-01-07T08:31:00.000-08:00

Dear God,
im really super worried about my results. i am not that worried now but i know i will probably pee in my skirt when it's my turn to sit on that chair and look at certificate what will make or break my future. i know worry does nothing it cant change anything so i have kept all my worries in a box tucked in a little dark nook of my brain. they will come out of that box in full force on monday. and i need You to help me through this.
im filling my days with as much fun, smiles as i can because i dont know if i can still smile come monday.pls pls pls dont let me get above 10 for my L1 R5.
pls pls pls let me get into the business course i want in ngee ann poly. pls pls pls pls make it happen at ngee ann. my L1 R5 can be 15 0r whatever u want it to be but pls let my L1R4 be 10 or below.
I dont want the results to alter the path i want to go in life.I dont want this to deny me the career i want in my life. i dont want this to change my life forever. pls pls pls let me get into the course i want.
Dear Lord, you know
i have no plan B. i only got plan A. if plan A fails, i wouldnt know what to do in life.if i dont do my desired course in poly, i honestly hav no idea what to do, where to go. i would be so broken and lost and maybe even suicidal. i cant fail. i need You , Lord. im calling out to You. pls make it happen.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thankgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all undertstanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:6-7

Amen

2010-01-05T06:58:00.000-08:00

sometimes things just get so crazy and living life gets hard to do.

i just had blood sucked out of my knees. i wanna cry it hurts so bad :((((((((((

2010-01-02T04:46:00.001-08:00

i hate fbk.

2010-01-01T03:28:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

I NEED TO CHANGE MY XTRA UGLY BLOG SKIN.i cant even change my font size and type.

2009-12-30T08:20:00.000-08:00

ever since i fell down last last sunday my body has been malfunctioning.i have a v.ugly bruise on my right knee and like scarb .and stuff basically my legs look alot like i;ve been in a really unfortunate bike accident. i have been applying all sorts cream so it wont leave a scar. im so scared it will. and my left hip was not spared either. and my left elbow. basically my arms and my legs are a nightmare now. and just realised this while looking at the mirror just awhile ago. my left knee looks mortifyingly weird like it's twisted orsomething like a deformed joint. it's damn scary and i did some simple lifting i realised it hurts quite a bit. i wna cry now. im calling up the orthopaedic tmr . why did i realise this so late!

ps. never use a kick scooter down hill.

2009-12-28T09:59:00.000-08:00

share my joy

2009-12-19T07:09:00.000-08:00

this post is for quek huei min

i will post church camp pics real soon i promise xoxo

2009-12-13T02:26:00.000-08:00

tmr my parents are going to malaysia from 14-18
my bro is off to malaysia but not w em from 14 16or 17

i have the hse all to myself!
total freedom! :) but everyone is busy! having church camp, working, hiding in ur hse doing absolutely nothing or running a fever :(

watching couples retreat w min and jon on mon
and i hav work
and no plans for my free time

anyone freeeeeeee to hang w me? call me:)

ps. candies i miss you! u must go jack's place w me nxt year

2009-12-10T07:08:00.000-08:00

im back from church
i manage to do horse-riding,spa,drive a buggy,play twister, (wii) boxing golfing, shopping, bought lots of new stufff.
most importantly i learned alot more abt God and have grown closer to Him.
blog more and upload pics in my next post :)

2009-12-06T02:41:00.000-08:00

IM OFF TO CHURCH CAMP IN MALAYSIA W QUEK HUEI MIN WHOOOOOOOOOO!
IM GOING HORSE RIDDING!
IM GONNA DRIVE A GOLF CART!! ( IT'S THE CLOSEST THING I CAN GET TO DRIVING)
IM GONNA DO WII GAMES!
IM GONNA GO FOR SPAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
IM MAYBE GONNA GOLF IF SOMEONE IS WILLING TO TEACH ME
IM GONNA HAVE PILLOW FIGHT
IM GONNA DO SO MANY THINGZZZZ!

SEE YA LATER

2009-12-04T04:26:00.000-08:00

i hate screaming kids

2009-12-03T13:52:00.000-08:00

when the world seems lonely and cold, and people give you turd.
you outsmart outwit outlast them and make some lemonade
and make yourself content.

2009-12-01T07:11:00.000-08:00

sg is so boringgggggggg. nothing but shopping malls...and more shopping malls. so so ridiculous. why cant they build something like genting highlands or like disney land or a circus or an outdoor adventure thingy or maybe a casino for teenagers that use monopoly money.so maybe we could hone our gambling skills and gamble like a pro in the real casinos hahah!or like build a chocolate factory and open it up to the public.

ps. i dont know what im talking about cos i so sick of visiting shopping malls

2009-11-30T07:29:00.000-08:00

the woman who shuns technology

my mum is nutty nutz. she's like kookoo or somethingg.
u guys know she does not own a handphone and she refuses to learn how to use one. she doesnt know how to answer a call or hang up on a person on a hp (wow!unbelievable huh)
she hate hps to the extent that when the house phone rings, she'll actually run to the cord phone to answer it. oh she hate the cordless phone too. she refuses to use it or learn how to use it. so whenever the phone rings, she'll run all the way to her bedroom to answer when the cordless phone is right next to her.

she hates to use calculator too. she driving me nuts. she would rather do the long division/multiplication.subtraction/addition method taught in primay sch than use a bloody calculator.the thing is she KNOWS HOW TO USE A CALCULATOR EVEN THE SCIENTIFIC ONES I USE FOR O LEVELS.it's extremely infuriating! cos she often makes a mistake cos her maths is like damn terrible.PLUS her mental sums skills is way, way below the normal average. so it takes a very looooongggggggg time for her to get her maths thingy on the paper right. AND when i tell her she that she has made a mistake and to use a calculator, she refuses! she insist on working the whole maths thing out she takes 38482384 light years.

i dont know whether to laugh or cry or kick her sometimes.

2009-11-29T11:17:00.000-08:00

i think michael buble is super sexy.
his voice is sexy, jazzy type
he's a fantastic singer.
love him <3333
BUT im not in lurveee w him lolzzz

2009-11-28T08:00:00.000-08:00

it all leads me back to you..

2009-11-27T11:52:00.000-08:00

I FINALLY HAVE A C BOX! im so /thrilled/delighted/elated/happy/overjoyed/
blessed/content/estastic/sunny/gay/glad/mirthful
/exultant/overwhelmed w such joyful emotions right now
(cant think of any more words to describe my joy)
YEAH WHEEE !
thanks to genius candies.
now u guys can tag me!

ps. candies: im sending my love from my hse in lor 2 to ur hse in lor 1 tp hahaha
can u feel the love anot hahah

2009-11-27T11:42:00.000-08:00

mel knows me the best... she even knows my "bodehhh" better than i do.
LOLOLOLZ! she know what bottoms are too big for me. i really need to stop overestimating myself and think like her. HAHAHAHZ
*SHINGZ MANZ*
here the about too-big shorts
melo says:
i told u hahaha
too big right
dione loves her bed says:
hahaha!
melo says:
i know ur bodehh better
than u do
stupid girl
lol
dione loves her bed says:
omgggggg u crack me up!
bodehhh
melo says:
BODEHHH -say it sexily-
dione loves her bed says:
sigh need to shop for denim shorts
melo says:
u better go urself la
u sure try 1000pairs

2009-11-24T10:20:00.000-08:00

i love her tone legs. need to tone my legs

her abs are amazing. toned but not six pack kind. must enrol in bellydancing class soon

i really want her toned stomach

need to lose weight and tone up!

these pics shall motivate me!

2009-11-24T09:46:00.000-08:00

mel and i are on a diet.
i plan to lose my fats and gain more muscles.
mel plans to be 45 kgs.

we'll make it

2009-11-23T13:10:00.000-08:00

i was on the phone w mel. and this cracked me up

dione: i thought R loves u deep deep or something
mel: shut up dont ever say that! i wanna vomit

30 secs later ..

dione: i thought R like loves u or something
mel: shut up dont ever say that shut up! yuck love

i love annoying mel sometimes hahah

2009-11-23T11:24:00.000-08:00

hi im back from malaysia it was horrid

dione loves her bed says:
there was a change of plan we went to malaya instead
and it was bloody horrid
long story
melo says:
malaya
dione loves her bed says:
tell u later
melo says:b
malaya
how old school
lol
ok
dione loves her bed says:
i was lazy to type malaysia la

2009-11-19T05:59:00.000-08:00

good news!
i am back at 45 kgs! whooo
it's has been so lonngggggg, it's about time. but i gotta work on my legs. need to tone them more.
gotta skip more often do mroe lefas exercise!
ciaoo!

i wish i gained 1 kg of muscles

2009-11-15T09:26:00.000-08:00

sometimes i rear the ugliest side of me to you. i dont know why i do.
seems like you somehow have a way to make me throw up the most nastiest verbal vomit.
seems like you throw it back in my face somehow or rather.
seems like sometimes you started everything out of nothing.
sometimes i wish i could take it back. sometimes i wish it'll cut u deep.
sometimes i wish i was more patient with you. to understand you. to stop and put myself in your shoes before i react. before i yell
but there has to be a compromise. you're got to do the same too.
you dont trust. you dont know how much it hurts. it hurts till i've become numb and become so jaded-till a point it doesnt matter anymore and i've moved on and i dont care.
you've got to try to understand me, be more patient and put yourself in my shoes and see how it feels-
what im trying so hard to tell you for your own sake or my sake or someone else's sake, what i really want you to understand and see, why im doing what im doing. to trust me but u dont.
but you're so sturbborn, you refuse
you pull everyone down with you.
you add gloom and get everyone so worked up
i dont know why you make thing so difficult for yourself and everyone
it is fun that way?
does it give u a rush of joy that u somehow got someone on your side and all worked up? that somehow you're won a mini victory at tearing me down?
does that make u feel any better or more self righteoues about youself?

seems like we're in a never ending nasty cycle.
and im hoping for a better change so badly till im on the very brink
and hope is gone.
sometimes i feel that glimmer of hope that someday things will change. i hold it so tightly in my hands. somehow it seems to slip through my weary fingers.
again yet again.

i cant change you or your point of view. you are always in your comfort zone
and i'm always stepping out of mine to reach you. you gotta know
you've got to sacrifice sometimes.
give and take goes a long way

maybe all i need is just the little tact to deal with your silly acts

2009-11-13T03:26:00.000-08:00

Goodbye my lover- James blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blind and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
(x2)

this is so beautiful. this song is amazing. im tearing like mad after hearing this. i dont know why im so emotional. my eyes are so red now. this song just makes me cry

there are some good covers of this song esp check out theBathroomGirl she sings awesome.

2009-11-11T09:11:00.000-08:00

THE Os ARE FINALLY OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

OK now that it is over. i feel like...out of place
like im so use to going to take papers in the hall
im not scared of exams anymore
you know like u dont have to study anymore..
like u can literally burn all ur textbks now.like really
it's kinda unbelivable .

stuff to do:
1# clear my pile of rubbish homework ,book, worksheet
ABIGAIL!!!!!! WHEN ARE WE HAVING THE BBQ . WE CAN USE WORKSHEETS AS CHAROAL.

2# lose weight
i can almost feel my thighs bloating up with fats. it;s matter of time before they touch each other when i stand(nightmare!). and my tummy is pfft
i hope it's all water retention but who am i kidding. i ate so much.
lose weight the hard way lorrrr

for you guys who still have paper till friday or monday
KEEP STUDYINGGGGGGGG FREEDOM WILL COME SOON!

i really hate o levels. you know u have absolutely no gauge on what you're gonna score. like no gauge man. it all depends on how well pple around u do.
u can be like uber good in eng whatever but like pple from like acs or msg can be like way better and all along u have been getting an a1...
u might not be getting a1 in the end. u know. i feel like there is this nagging worry/fear at the back of my mind that im trying very hard to knock out. that i will not do well. and go to ite or retain or something. im really quite scared la.
what if like the pple made a mistake and key in the wrong score for me. you know..agg and in fact i feel like i cant really have ABSOLUTE MUCH ANTICIPATED JOY/FUN i was expecting to look forward after the Os.

no no. positive thinking, whatever is done is done. there is no way i cant do anything about it. might as well go have some AWESOME FUN in the meantime

2009-11-08T22:14:00.000-08:00

greed is evil

my weight have been hovering between 45.5 tp 47 kgs ever since the beautiful start of the bloody olevels.
the thing is im not actually really upset about how much i weight but rather how much bigger i have grown.
for those of u who think i look the same, it's not true
my excess flab is hidden under the loose uniform, loose clothes
i know im havent gone out much( less walking. i have been sitting down on my almost-flabby butt for hrs painfully trying my best to score As. )
sometimes it seems the only thing that can motivate,destress whatever me is food
when im stress i think food
when im taking a break, i snack infront of the tv or whatever.
sometimes when im depressed, i eat. it's called emotional eating but im dont binge only very rarely. i never really quite understand wny pple binge when they are sad,i do now cause im doing it now.
i find myself eating supper quite often.
and mac is usually what i get for supper. in fact last night i had mcspicy at 12.05 at night.

i m really disgusted with myself
i have gotten so use to eating, i even stuff my mouth when im full. i dont usually do this before.i dont know why i do this now, but i do. it isnt a pleasant feeling (bloated tummy and all) but my hands seem to have a life of its own, shoving food down my poor liitle throat whether i like it or not

my eating habits have really gone the better of me. my body as tone as a yellow rubber duck.
my probably once was fast metabolism rate is as slow as an aged leopard due to lack of excercise.
it cant cope with all the food im eating at this alarming rate.
thus the extra kilos of trans fat, whatever shittty fats that clogs up my veins, causing heart dieases

i cant wait for olevels to be over so i can have time to whip myself into shape.
i WANT TO EXERCISE!!!
pls be over quick olevels, before i turn into a fat obese woman and die alone on my fat couch because the massive deposits of fats on my neck choked my airway

if i dont lose the fats after one mths tops, im going for a liposuction lolol

2009-11-06T11:29:00.000-08:00

do you believe the world will end in 2012?
well i dont.
the most popular theory on why this is so is because the mayan calendar ends on that day thus it's end of the world.

but there are also many other theories for exmaple
aliens will come and abduct us and kill us.

no im not kidding. this is what i found on the net.

Aliens from the Planet Nibiru

According to Truthism.com and Gorilla199, Planet X was first observed by cavemen using the reflections on a lot of puddles stacked on top of each other. It is believed to be a black dwarf planet on a crash course with Earth's orbit.

When Planet X (Nibiru) hits Earth, the race of ancient Sumerian aliens who live on it will invade, using our bodies as nourishment for unknown purposes.

But why doesn't NASA admit it exists?

Simple.

There is a global conspiracy of international governments hiding the facts from us. NASA is involved in the cover-up, and are actually controlled by aliens.
To avoid mass panic.
Pursue their own, greedy agendas.
NASA hates people from England and thinks it's funny to let them set up an Olympic game then all die.

like what?? it is so unbelievable.

so how did they idea come about?
ideas relating to the 21st of December 2012 have been circulating like a powerful cheese fart for decades now. It seems that the current ideas relating to the Mayan/old Mexican Calendar system, known as the Long Count, began becoming popular with the emergence of Eastern Philosophy and Thought in Western Culture in the 1960's. The Mayan Civilization created a complex calendar which tracks the days in a very similar way to our current calendar system. This calendar system comes to its end on December 21st 2012. The reason for this is still a mystery

i think it's bull.
i believe the world will come to an end one day but not on dec 21st 2012.
just because the calendar of some civillisation has stopped thus pple assume
oh it's the end of the world!

really why do we let the mayans, a grp of pple who existed before Christ was even born, to dictate when the world will end?
seriously who are they anyway?
according to th wikipedia

The Maya is a Mesoamerican civilization, noted for the only known fully developed written language of the pre-Columbian Americas, as well as its art, architecture, and mathematical and astronomical systems. Initially established during the Preclassic period (c. 2000 BC to 250 AD), many Maya cities reached their highest state development during the Classic period (c. 250 AD to 900 AD), and continued throughout the Postclassic period until the arrival of the Spanish. At its peak, it was one of the most densely populated and culturally dynamic societies in the world

okay so now we know how ancient they are. and because of some theory they made thousands of years ago, everyone believes it. are they really that reliable? on what exactly did they base their theory on?

if u find out more about the mayan civilisation, u'll find that The Mayans had a very precise understanding of our solar system's cycles and believed that these cycles coincided with our spiritual and collective consciousness.

wow how genuis they based their theories on the moon stars and sun.
how could they? telescope was not even made. there was no tools to aid them so how did they do it? i dont know
they believed in cycles and stuff. not only that they believe in many god like god of the suns, god of the moons you know etc
these "gods" were merely idols.

now here's a scary fact :
The Maya practiced human sacrifice. In some Maya rituals people were killed by having their arms and legs held while a priest cut the person's chest open and tore out his heart as an offering. This is depicted on ancient objects such as pictorial texts, known as codices. It is believed that children were often offered as sacrificial victims because they were believed to be pure

i dont know about you but if u ask me the maya were pretty creepy and demonic to me.
their religion consisted of self-created idols
they practised demonic rituals
they based their theories on the solar system without simple tools

ok so maybe they were such geniuses like Egyptians they didnt need tools. alot of therioes made by the egyptian are true. they studied the solar system and know when harvest will come,when the nile river will flood and stuff, how come the egyptians never predicted a similiar theory to confirm the mayan theory since they both heavily based their calendars on the solar system and they both worshipped idols.maybe the ans to that is they simply dont know when the world will end thus they did not try to be smart and mislead pple like the unintellectual mayas.

i find the fact that people all over the world have bought some ancient theory by some ancient scary civilisation is ridiculous. they have allowed some highly unbelievable theory to screw with their minds and the send whole world into a mad frenzy. this theory is not even scientifically proven. according to the Bible, no one will know when the world will end. not even the angels in heaven will know. only God.
at least the Bible has credibility, it is a fact the Jesus existed on earth before. even for those who dont believe the Bible, with some common sense, you'll know which carries more credibility.certainly not some ancient theory by some ancient demonic civilisation

the thing is so highly publicized that even hollywood has created a movie on it.
hollywood sure knows how to make a quick and big buck when it see one.

every movie in hollywood is made to earn millions. that is why they generally have happy endings. so that u'll feel happy watching a hollywood movie and will watch the NEXT movie they produce.they have exploited this speculation, this theory to make $$. with half they world believing this shitty theory ,guessing,agonising over what Doom day would be like, what better storyline then that to interest billions of pple all over the world?

this has accelerated and strengthen the spread of this belief around the whole.
because of this movie more pple will watch it, more will believe this because the movie seems so real( the movie is only so life-like due to its big budget cost)
more pple will suddenly be more liberated in what they do because the world is going to end soon anyway. this will accelerate crime rates. pple will start to indulge in the greatest forbidden temptations and sins because of this.
this is the greatest tragedy

i really hope pple wont go around killing each other on the streets on the 20th of dec 2012. i shudder to think what pple might do on the eve of doomsday. kill pple they dont like? rape random women? rob the banks? kill their parents? bomb places?

the producers and directors of the movie will be laughing their way to the bank in their diamond-embellished limos very soon at the expense of human stupidity

2009-11-06T10:33:00.000-08:00

THE O LEVELS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!
i still have 2 more papers

mon- human geo
wed- science mcq

i cant wait!
!!!

i have a long list of things i wanna do after Os

- lose the weight i gained becos of olevel mugging aim: lose 3-4 kgs
- take up belly dancing
- get room repainted, refurnished, redecorated
- clear the pile of messin my study and room that i have ignore becos mugging
- get in shape tone body
- suntan
- visit the science centre to see the human body exhibit( the one that use real specimens
*im just really fascinated by it okay,im not weird

here are just a few i can rattle off my mind now. i actually wrote the long list in my notebook but too lazy to type everything out

i really hate blogger now. they wont let me change the font so pardon the ugly font

2009-10-31T05:17:00.000-07:00

look to your left>>>

p.s gotta find a new blogskin soon. this will do for the time being

2009-10-31T05:14:00.000-07:00

i have no idea what happened to my blogskin

2009-10-06T09:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY SWEET 16TH TO ME!
I HAD SO MUCH FUN TODAY THANKS TO U GUYS!
LOVE YOU ALL DEEP DEEP <3>
i really was not expecting any fancy thing or surprises since everyone is mugging hard now.
i was all set for some low key extra mini celebration and i certainly not expecting any presents or cards. thought u guys weere too busy mugging. i already prepared myself for a birthday without a cake , surprises and presents, cards only a small dinner.

BUT YOU GUYS DID NOT! !

man, im so touched. you guys gave me a surprise cake, (sexy) presents, and cards filled with deep love.

hueimin i must say your wrapping skills are superb. so sad u couldnt come. wish u came.

after sch, u guys all went to wrap presents. so sneaky. dont even wanna hav lunch with me. sneaky little rats lols

me and aby mel candies had dinnner at harry's at the chijimes. thanks to brilliant candies for her suggestion.
ordered mocktails (still not legal to drink yet lols) and very delicious food.
mel could get enough of my lasagne!
harry's has good food must try. and then a stupid cockroach appeared and ran towards us and scared the shit out of us! esp mel! hahah we were all screaming like mad and kneeling on the chairs.
everyone just stared at us. the stupid staff didnt even help to kill it.
i think we were damn glam haha
mela and candies went to toilet for damn long. mel supposely had diarrhoea. i believed her.
meanwhile i chatted with aby and teased her about low cut thingy HAHAAH! (eyebrows*)

suddenly there was a loud happy birthday song. saw candies and mel with a birthday cake. victor( dumb one haha) was holding the cake hahaha
i really really was very touched by all your efforts. nearly teared. i didnt expect anything like that at all!
thanks guys the cake was awesomeeeeeeeeeee!

haha i have 3 chocolate cakes in my fridge now!. gonna eat them really slowly! savour my 16ness lols

AND THE CRAZIEST PART WAS taking the most retarded shots of us around the chijimes.
i never had so much fun doing the most retarded shitz crazy stuff.
we took videos
of us dancing to single ladies, and some real slick dances moves and etc
came home saw mandy's note and cake on my table
i will upload photos soon.
stay tuned for the craziest photos!

i really thank God and feel so blessed with such awesome cool friends. even thought it's really near o levels they still celebrated with me like crazyyy.i know i can always count on you guys. i really appreciate all your efforts esp the cards. gonna keep them till im old haha

thanks a gaziliion times for all you guys did for me today. i'll always remember it

2009-10-05T03:41:00.001-07:00

finally got my replacement sim card! my old number is back!!
i love o levels.
happy birthday to me in advance since most likely tmr i will be studying for the Os
im gonna kick ass for Os
hear me rawrrrr!

2009-09-25T02:26:00.000-07:00

HI I'VE GOT A NEW NUMBER. NOW BUT IT'S TEMPORARY.
84300540 IF U NEED TO CONTACT ME LOLOL

2009-09-24T05:47:00.001-07:00

my phone got stolen yesterday some shitty asshole.
why are pple so cruel and greedy? my phone is like in a bad condition already and it isnt gonna fetch much in the market. texted the stealer to give back my phone in return for some $$.
apparently he loves my phone too much to give it back.

dont they ever feel guilty abt taking someone phone? and my phone is seriously in shitty condition. it probably cant be worth $100.

and the most suckiest thing is i lost all my contacts again. and pics and music. haha
if they probably hoping to see some racy or naked pics, sex tapes they wouldnt find it in my phone. so why keep it!? assholesssssssssssssssssssss to the max
life suck without a phone.

shall not brood over it. im gonna think abt what phone to get. i have no idea. any recommendation?

thank god there sg still has public phones around. dont know what i'll do without them. never knew their importance till now.

2009-09-18T01:43:00.001-07:00

i am mel's house using her com.

you guys have to watch the ris low video on youtube. it's hilarious!!!!
i love leopard preenns.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5F74FZfdSJY

and chris crocker dressing up as a woman with fake boobs HAHAH shopping at walmart
you have to see the way he walks in heels!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d3CBhCoT69U

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5F74FZfdSJY
this is an interview about some arab man with 4 wives. talking about how he organizes them (place them above his shop houses) and talking about his jealous wives. it's kinda absurd. i kinda feel very sad for the wives. marriage should be between a couple. polygamy is gross. i dont know how they share their husband.

mel's gonna burn an awesome jason mraz cd for me! yippeeee

2009-09-06T05:13:00.000-07:00

STUDY DIONE! O LEVELS IS FREAKING COMINGGG!

2009-09-06T04:55:00.000-07:00

i am a sick person.
i have an ,according to doctor," lower eyelid infection"
my eyes look funny.
i have a bumpy tongue or something my tongue feels really sore. like i scald it somehow.

today, pastor moore was preaching today.
and he said that many christians suffer formt this diease called "spiritual malaria"

they feel hot now and cold the next. it's like a cycle. and we're not supposer to feel like that.
we should feel " hot " all the time for God. it has to be constant thing.and i thought how i am one too.
today sermon was relevant.in fact i feel that all the sermons lately has been telling stuff.

2009-08-21T10:52:00.000-07:00

FLACCID

and i burst the zipper of my skinnys todays
looked like stuff sausages in them.
it does really emphasize something
right now i cant be bothered by it now.
i have got the frikking Os
mugging schedule
doing well
these sortsof thing to worry abt

my plans for after the olevels is to lose weight, tone my self

thing to do after o levels :
- pick up pilates lesson
- & belly-dancing !
HAHAHA cant wait

im looking forward to the Os cos i cant wait for this to be over
but im dreading it at the sametime. talk abt contradiction

2009-08-01T09:40:00.000-07:00

val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
blehblehbleh
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
like i want to talk to tall anorexic lady
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
hmpf
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
hahahahahahha, are you on verge of slapping me now?
dione is going to study very hard for the o levels and lose 2 kgs says:
yes
dione is going to study very hard for the o levels and lose 2 kgs says:
btw i gain 1 kg
dione is going to study very hard for the o levels and lose 2 kgs says:
okay
dione is going to study very hard for the o levels and lose 2 kgs says:
NOT FUNNYYYYYYYYYY
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
damn mega funny
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
and ironic too
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
headline : MISS ANOREXIC GAINS 1 FREAKING KG ! UH NOOO
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
YES IT IS A CRISIS
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
i intend to stay 45 forever and ever!
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
wow 45 is old man
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
i rather stay 35
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
LOL i've got this gut feeling that i'll be like my mom in future
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
45 kg u dummy
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
i know

later
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
you dare !
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
i'll make miss anorexic turn to miss huge and overweight
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
i'll stuff you so full of food that you've to roll all over place
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
bonne nuit dione
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
im too grumpy to cont talking. im like crapping
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
haha
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
ouch i will like shit it all out. u can never make me fat
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
i will argue with you pointlessly tmr
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
me too
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
shut up
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
i read CONNIE PICKLES
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
hahahaha
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
stop using big words
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
u annoying lump
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
how immature
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
lumpy
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
heheheh
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
well my intellectually challeged compaion, i'm a little drained from this pointless jabber so i think i shall turn in for nigh
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
*companion
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
toodles
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
hahahahahaha
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
i win award for miss annoying tonight
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
okay given
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
bye luv u zz
dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
hope u get black eyes
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
hope you get a black lip
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
wait make that 2 black lips
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
okay, NIGHT DONNIE LOVE YOU AND YOUR CHARCOAL LIPS <>
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:

dione is going ON DIET. to lose that extra kg of solidified fats she accumulated last week by stuffing herself silly says:
black lips i dont smoke babe
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
y just turned black from all your annoyingness
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
it has a harmful side effect
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
look at your toes !
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
now y're black too
val + hu-ee-i-m-i-n says:
becareful before you start turning into an african on me

this is a rare psychotic conversation i have witrh huei min.
sometimes i feel like kicking her but i still love my little annoying lumpy friend( ah lian)
muahz

ps. u must be wondering why i wna lose 2 kgs. well so that i do not exceed 45 and still can binge occasionally haha

2009-07-25T10:45:00.000-07:00

i have :
1 birthday card to docorate
1 scrapbook to decorate

i have:
4 tests to study for
1 essay to complete
o level revision

2009-07-19T11:07:00.000-07:00

miss my cute viet lucy liu alook alike

ps. check out mandy in the bkgd hahahah

2009-07-19T10:56:00.000-07:00

i havent felt this way for quite sometime ok a long long time. feels......like so ugh crappy h8 it.maybe abit sad.ugh ugh. i really want to rant everything out here but i cant. i hope this feeling goes away.

2009-07-13T05:55:00.000-07:00

i havent post for ages. i feel that i should post. so im gonna post now. but the problem is that i do not have the slightest idea of what to write. but im goona write anyway.

during my non-blogging days, i shopped quite a bit.
i bought a lips shirt, a smile shirt, a crazy duck shirt, a purple zipper bandage mini skirt ,a tee dress,a skull tank top, fishnets, 1 pair of triangle earrings.

i really wanted to buy more bottoms. i had my mind set to get more bottoms and not tops instead. but u know life doesnt always go the way u plan.

anyway my midyear resolution is to do a revision everyday no matterwhat. i intend to be a full-time mugger from now till the olevel. i have already come to(ok trying,very hard) terms that i have to sacrifice certain pleasures i take much delight in for my future sake. i will persevere till after the Os. yes i will.

i realise that in every post i write, i never fail to mention the o levels. eww i find myself abit gross and nerdy and loserish . i know im not the only one HAHA.

oh the joy of sec 4!

oh the vietnamese pple came on tues stayed till friday.
and their ex vice principal and maths teacher very horny, lustful leacherous, vomit-inducing,lowdown creepy shits.

2009-06-29T05:04:00.000-07:00

have u ever noticed how dangerous facebook can be?
anyone including those u have only met for 10secs can find you online. i know creepy right. but the creepiest part is when your family starts to add you. and all you of the sudden you're like oh shit. omg since when did they ever beocme so hi-tech. i cant believe they even know what facebk is. omg crap shit must remove_____ pics and change my status to single" or something like that. cos for all you know, they can dig out all the dirt on you and babble it to old-fashioned mom and dad. and worst to keep the tabs on you they start check out all your friends and start adding them too. and you're toastttttt baybehhh!

now are you freaked out?
but fear not because i think there is a solution. language
you're could create one real fbk acc and a "family" acc. so you can pose your drinking/clubbin/couple photos up on fbk in its full glory without worrying of mom and dad. hehhe that obcessively take 1000 gazillion pics of you studying in your room, library, starbucks, toilet wherever. probaby pics of you helping an old lady cross the road , picking oranges for an old man something like that. that upload them on fbk. whaaalaaa! there! you're the best son/daughter. hahaha then u fervently pray everynight that they will buy the "saint" act and give u more pocket money and late nights. HAHAH

sch has just started today. it wasnt so bad. i miss the wonton mee. and there was no physics baby! wooooo!

2009-06-23T03:55:00.000-07:00

heyhey! i am back form hueimin stayover, that girl sleeps at 12plus every night. so annoying la it's a stayover! it's about late night horror movies with icecream and pillow fights. this post is gonna be a really short one. between last week and this week
i :
> bought a new pair of awesome blue jeans from pull and bear. fit me well love it <333
>bought 2 new shirts
> bought bodyshop bodyscrubs they smell heavenly love <3333
> stayed over at min's house for 2 nights
> pillow-fight with min and min got injured :(
> nearly bought a bag and a cool pair of shoes :(
> borrowed many many library books!
>did very very little revision and stuff

the guilt is killing me im gonna do revision now!

2009-06-12T22:16:00.000-07:00

guess what. i just got cured of my insomnia. yayy!
i slept at 10.30 last night. set my alrm at 8 plus. but you know me, snoozedit and woke up at 12.30 cos mel called.

i feel abit crappy youknow waking up after 12. its like half the day in gone...
ok my meals time are kinda screwed too. but im still having my kokos for brkfast + milk ha!
then im gonna completed 500 skips to grow taller. i make myself to this everyday to grow taller.

anyhow. i had this really scary dream. i dreamt that i was in this catholic home/ school for with a bunch of pple from beatty. the nuns were really scary and freaking like they would whip if you talk too loud or smthing. but the funny is that the home was like in a flat but it had 4 or 5 storeys. it was kinda big. and i rmb no one was allow to go the the first floor because the scary head nun was afraid we would escape.
oh and the steps was like piano keys each time i step, it will sound. so freakinglish. ugh esp the stairs on the first floor they will sound extra extra loud. the whole house i hear.
and for some sort of funny reason, the head nun was married. and her husband lived in there too. its getting weirder by the second.
somehow i managed to escape with 4 friends. but 2 when back to the home in the end. cos they were afraid they would be caught and face a greater punishment.

there was much more but im lazy to type. im gonna do my 500

2009-06-11T14:44:00.000-07:00

It's close to 6 in the morning and i havent sleep.

i have been havin insomnia for the past few days and it sucks.
the only reasons i can think of is my afternoon/evening/ night naps anddddddd the freaking hot oven-like singapre temperature.

let's talk weather: i hate the weather.
have u realise that it's like 34c everyday in humid ,overcrowded,concrete jungle, skyscraper-infested tiny little sg? like there isnt enougH people to supply body heat in sg to keep the country warm enough.

and on top of that, mother nature is sending a mini heat wave upon sg for godknowwhat reason.

why? becos of irresponsible people who cant be bothered to reduce their freaking carbon footprints to allow everyone on this planet to lead a better, more corfortable lives.
what a selfish bunch.

i have tried many ways to overcome the heat by wearing lesser to sleep.
so i ditch my froggie pjs for a girly nightey.
no it doesnt help. i still feel the f.heat.

oh and i also gave the mosquitos meal made from my blood. not to mention, i ended up with horrid hideous bites on places i dont wanna mention. and they are really itchy.
this is just one of my many ways.

it's now 6 .10. i dont feel sleepy. it's starting to worry me. sleeeeeepppp come too meeee.

now lets talk abt the naps.
it's not my fault the weather is so hot it makes you wanna stay under the covers tthe whole day.
from today onwards. i pledge not to take afternoon.eveningnight naps to reset my bodyclock to normalcy.

now i hear the ahbengs downstairs make fools of themslves. i think they're wrestling or something like that. i think they have insomnia too just like me. poor things.

i suddenly have
this inspiration: im gonna start my detox tmr. healthy mind= healthy body.
im making a trip to the grocery shop tmr.

its 6 .20 now.
i shall now stop writing and lie on my bed and wait for-with some divine help- sleep to come to me.

good morning!

2009-06-09T10:54:00.000-07:00

I HATE IT WHEN MY PHONE SPOILS.
my phone spolit a few weeks ago. then i sent it for repair. when it came back i only had 3 or 4 contacts in my sim card. i am positive i transfer all my contacts to my sim card before i sent ti for repair. but dontknow what shitty thing happened. ughhh!
omggggggg i have lost so many people's number! ughhhhh
my aunt uncle friends blah blah. so now i go around like a retarded asking pple for their numbers. hate it. i hate to feel so not in touch with people.
screw sony e phones *$@&! !!!!!!!

annoyed to till eyes wanna drop out

2009-06-09T10:28:00.000-07:00

I went to play guitar hero at aby house today it was goooddddddddd fun!
i was suppose to do homework. ughhhh guilt choking me already

2009-06-04T09:06:00.000-07:00

happy birthdayyyyyyyy abigail and brenda!

i'll pass you guys your pinkalicious and bunnilicious presents sooon .

yesterday we went to seoul gargen at taka to celebrate aby and bren bday.
and we took so much like 6 plates of meat on from the buffet and we couldnt put it back. then we realize that .....they charged for food wastage.and on top of that we had like 30 mins to 4 which was the time the buffet had to end. so we stuffed ourselves like pigs ooommggg i am totally turning vegetarian already. i ate like all sorts of meat.
uncooked or half cooked or whatever funny meat we just wolfed it down like woahh.
i almost vomitted. 95% of what i ate was beef chicken. the rest was pathetic fishball or vege was like . it was an experience i never want to repeat hawhaw

i havent touched meat ever since yahh

2009-05-22T09:11:00.000-07:00

today was awesome day at brenda's house.
mel brenda sera amanda guiyan all came over and we awesome fun
played tennis.
then played with her candy ( the cutest furry puppy) brenda neighbour's dog
mel tried to braid her fur. then we went swimming!
did piggyback racing.
gui yan sera and amanda left
then bren mel and me strolled to leisure park
wanted to catch night at the mesuem 2 but it was very late.
droppped the whole thing and when to dinner at pastamania!
DONT DONT EVER TRY PESTO. IT'S THAT HORRIBLE ICKY GREEN PASTA AND IT TASTE LIKE COW DUNG!

gosh my legs are hurting nowwww

ps. i like your hair. it needs more gel. sha-ahhh

2009-05-21T05:52:00.000-07:00

hi i didnt go school today. dont ask me why.
got back part of my papers back and overall some are a let-down and there are some that make me wanna to the tribal dance.

amaths: p1 54/80
p2 70/100

this makes me wanna to the tribal dance .
total 69.4/ 100

this makes wanna flush my head down the toilet bowl and do the tribal dance at the sametime
because.....
i used to barely pass or fail amths kinda thing. i worked really hard for amaths so getting this is a vast improvement! (hug myself<3)>combine science

chem: 81/100
wow it's better that an A1 it is a A plus plus ***** :DDDDDDD
makes me wanna do the tribal dance and a secret special dance i only do it when im really happy: the la-la dance <333>

gonna watch american idol! byeeeee

ps. anybody interested in watch night at the meseum 2?

2009-05-17T10:37:00.000-07:00

MID YEARS ARE OVERRRRR!

joyyyyyyy!

on the flipside i am dreading to see the results.
i pretty much screwed up my emaths paper 2( killer!)and eng compo ugh. i only had 30 mins to write the compo and man it was undeveloped. i think my dialogue was freaking childish i could have done so much better if given more time.my ending was so abrupt. i probably score below 20. woosy bananas.

my chinese compo was like mind-blowing rocking awesomeness.i am not even sure i got the format right.repetition of the same phrase due to my limited vocab. RAHH!
whatever iam just praying the paper 2 will save my ass.

since school is out. i am going plan what iam going to do during the holidays!
there are so many thing i wanna achieve.

GOAL NUMBER ONE: BE HEALTHIER
to be achieve by:

#1 run 3 times a week. 4.8 km each time no less.
#2 eat more fruits and vege
#3 sleep early !
#4 keep snacking to the minimum
#5 eat all my vitamins pills daily
#6 detoxify body for 2 weeks
#7 get rid 2 kg of accumulated toxic in the body
#8 wake up early

heres just a peek of my holiday plans. will be posting more nextime
its two-lish and i am meeting mandy earlayyy tmr to run! latersszz

2009-04-30T08:17:00.000-07:00

the horrid exams are starting next week. double yuck eww puke. and im being a good girl have been resisting the charms of the internet for more than a week ... more tham 10 days i bet.

todays during amaths mr ng was zoning or stoning out and his face was ridiculousy hilarious.

imagine : mr NG TC sitting on the teacher table with 2 stubby legs dangling by the side. he hunches his back causing his cute pot belly to pop out more than usual. looks a bit rounder and cuter. there is a chance it might just burst the a few buttons off. ok now you get how his body positon was. okay now his face.. he was staring into outer space or something. eyes were in a daze. his face puffier and rounder like sorta like bull dog. no neck to be seen. mouth agape. teeth tongue expose in its full glory. his expression was like person who had just eaten for a heavy meal. a very heavy meal and is feeling abit sleepy. he kept this "dazed stoner" thing for a long time. at least long enough for abi to realise and tellme to look at him. and long enough for me to tell mel and candies about and long enough for mel to tell brenda. so more pple were aware of ng tc stoning. we LAUGHED SO HARD!! candies laughed the loudest and that sortlike woke him out of his trance-like state.
bananas. should have taken a photo was then tell candies about it.

oh and mel found ng tc cute she wanted to pat him like a furry puppy.i wanted to pat then smack him.

my leg is decomposing fast. my insect bites or rashes or a allergies (idontknow what it is)is getting worse it riding up my leg. threatening to scar me for life. if i dont stop scratching. i must be allergic to the insect saliva or something maybe that's why this thing is so itcy. i am at the itchiest point of my life :(((( helppppppp

a few days ago mel called me and i was itching badly.
our conversation went like........

dione: my bites are really itchy mel!!! HELP!
mel:ok ok how am i suppose to help you?
dione: help me scratch plss
mel: how to scratch? you so far away
dione: do a virtual scratch
mel: ok woof woof wooff. reaow meow meow *barks like a puppy* * meow like a cat*
dione:ok that's better do more! super itchy!
mel: *barks ferociously* RAWF RWAF REAOW! REAOW!
dione: not enough! HARDERR!
mel: RAWFFFFFFFFF! RAWFFFFFF! MEOW!!!!! MMMMMMEEOWWW! REEEAOOWW! RAWFFF! MEOWWWWW!
dione: yay! that's better. i feel better already :)
mel: i bet you scratched it yourself just now.
dione: busted

ps. pms mood now

2009-04-20T10:12:00.000-07:00

my leg is hideous like crap. yuck stop scratching dioneeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-17T10:08:00.000-07:00

have you ever come to a point in life, you feel so..jaded. unfazed. maybe just so consumed or maybe occupied by other stuff. that thought that thing the questions that silently lingers in your head. you have no idea what or you just dont want to know.and maybe you do know it but maybe you just refuse to see it eye to eye to acknowledge it. cos you're afraid. you're just wishing maybe it will be like buried deep somewhere you'll never know. or maybe you're just wishing it just disappear just like that?

2009-04-17T09:22:00.000-07:00

what a day! today was really tiring. had AA today . will post some photos up soon. after AA candies and i went for movieee. 17 again. was good very funny. i think we laughed too loud bacj there in the cinema haha. and i got home i just realised that i had missed my dental appointment. shitt. my dental didnt even call. ughh. never remind me

i cant borrow books anymore until i pay my fines and they are high, sky-high baby! 26 lullars. let me explain. i lost a library book. which cost only 13 odd lullars. fines for late-returning of other books less 5 lullars. then i have this "processing fee" that is 7 odd lullars. wth. what the hell is processing fee? is it the fee people pay for the librarian use her fingers to type on the keyboard to report that you have lost your book? no wonder the library is so rich. total rip off. i can just do it myself.

ps. i think my leg is going to be really badly scarred if i dont stop scratching the stupid insect bites.
away from me blood-sucking mozzies!

2009-04-07T09:44:00.000-07:00

i hate physics.i hate physics ws. ugghhhhhh..
everyone is mugging for exams now.
i am so sick of listening to white horses sound track
i cant wake up late tmr.
i cant sleep in class.
i am going to stop eating too much
i am mugging mugging mugging

2009-03-25T00:38:00.000-07:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN QUEK!

how can u sleep before 12 on your birthday? hope you like all your presents! love you

2009-03-23T06:56:00.000-07:00

i had been MIA for the longest time manzzz. becos of the stupid NYBC project thing lorrrrrrrzzhh. finally it was over and we won silver with special honours ytd
my team rocks some serious socks off! lolol
anyway i am so annoyed with singapore. eps annoying singaporeans they shuld like go eat some shit. absolutely cant be tolerated.

top 5 most annoying thing/ people
1. young kids who cry in public
2.people who blast their headphones in public
3. slowwalkers who NOT ONLY WALK AT A SNAILs' PACE, they occuiped the entire walkway
4. hello kitty m.a.c
5. P.D.As

one:
young kids who cry like nobody's business in restaurants, malls, in the trains, buses have u ever experience that? i have so many times. omg and their cries are like 1000 decibels ,so ear-shrilling screeching. and they know just when to pick the best time to cry their tiny heads off. they turn into little devils when you're feeling tired lousy shitty or deep in thoughts about something important. all of a sudden you find your eardrums on the verge of shattering. sometimes it takes me my every bit of self-control not to like go over and throttle and smack them.like today in thebus home, if i could, i would have strangle that stupid kid to death. if i ever have kids, i will make sure that they will never ever do that. that's for sure

two:
on the same bus, there was this stupid aunty who sat next to me. her headphones was so damn loud, i could have sang out every word of the song. not only that, the song she was blasting was like some techno/ trance get this- chinese song. probably reminiscencing her young clubbing days or what. the song was damn high-pitch.so the whole time i sat next to her, it like listening to some heavy rock drumming with a mix of fingernails scratching a blackboard with a band of singing hyenas. yup that terrible. i really wanted to choke her to death.

three:
slow walkers should be wiped out of the face of the earth, they are a nuisance.i mean if you're old then its okay, its alright. but if you're young and agile, you shuld just do the world a favour and join the old folks' home. it is a rightful place for slow walkers who block walkways.imagine you're in a rush, you're walking. infront there is like a grp of pple talking and walking really slow and they build an impenetrable wall taking up the entire walkway. you clear ur throat, they dont get the hint. you clear your throat even louder they still dont get it. it is until you finally scream an "excuse me" then the notion of standing aside to let others pass finally dawns, they make a miserable tiny space that only a chihuahua can squeeze through for you to pass.like what you're suddenly size -4 acrobat who can squeeze through that pathetic tiny space. not only that, they give you the " glare" becos they think you're rude or whatever. people like that shuld be unmercilfully smack in the face repeatly 24/7

four:
actually i dont really hate hello kitty. but i hate it when there is like a cluster of hello kitty faces plastered one place. it chokes me.which idiotic m.a.c marketer came up the concept hellokitty+ m.a.c = cuteness. the whole of tangs is decorated with hello kitty wallpaper.it's like i see more hello kittys then people. the worse is the hello-kitty makeup collection set and the hello kitty m.a.c video. the men in the video wore hello kitty balloons on their heads and danced and swayed like morons.good for them that their faces were masked so one can recognise them.pple will probably think they are gay.sorry hello kitty fans.

five:
i hate pple who can grope each other anywhere in public like they're in their own bedrooms.it's disgusting.they should like go home and do it.

six:
i hate r.

ps. maybe i am having pms. thats why iam so cranky

2009-03-03T06:02:00.000-08:00

2009-03-02T05:38:00.000-08:00

i love lily allen.

song i love:

close to you- the carpenters
smile- lily allen
fear- lily allen
light on- david cook
air hostess- busted
sleeping with the light on- busted
gives you hell- all-american rejects
super massive black hole- muse
i miss you- blink 182
cheated on me -gavin degraw
bleeding love- leona lewis

seventeen forever- metro station

sitting waiting wishing- jack johnson

2009-03-02T04:41:00.000-08:00

school sucks. amaths test on wed. yucky. but today choir members had to go victoria concert hall sooo i miss alot of boring lessons. YAAY.
sang my heart out there in vch. i think the whole choir did too. we sounded amazing with the high ceiling and all. i think we really stand a good chance of winning a silver or gold this year. so everybody sing sing sing!! but do mind the pitching lols
At vch, my goodness my stomach was like a blackhole. i was so starved becos i had air + water for breakfast and the singing really burned/used all my calories/ fats lol.
during the 5 mins break, mel,pravin,agnes,and a few others scoured the entire building for a food stall or a vending machine . we ran around the buidings in our heels hoping that maybe food would just drop down from the sky and into our hungry mouths. of cos it didnt happen
every single damn food stall was closed. i thought i was going to die of hunger in vch. imagine how unglam. probably was a good thing , otherwise i would prolly burst my belt. bird-brained seamtress who did my belt, you have no skill in taking measurements. you should go fly a kite or something for a living

thank god we came back to sch before i drop dead on the floor.
got back my english comprehension failed. shamsudin is amazing. she failed everyone except 6 pple. failing compre is demoralizing :(

i'm listening to busted songs now

ps.i love busted

2009-02-22T06:37:00.000-08:00

sorry i have been neglecting my blog. i have been too busy having fun and studying.
anyway i have bloody emaths test on wednesday crap probability is bloody difficult. okay maybe not that diff but still it is hardd.
on friday, went to trinity@ adam with mel and a whole bunch of beattyians. the performance was good i must say. the singing and acting was fantastic!.the event was well planned. then later the whole bunch of us plus some ex-beattyians went to mad jack and had dinner. the food was TERRIBLE. and insanely over-priced. waste of my greens.
omg! and there were icky cockroaches roaming around the area we sat. ewww. the place is dirty.i was so scared a whole army of there will just pour out of the drain and attack us. esp me and mel we sat next to the smal drain.
lesson learnt: never go to mad jack

today went to church. pastor crocker was talking about the agony of betrayal of Jesus. how Jesus was betrayed by judas, one of the 12 apostles
and there was this one message that stuck me hard.

"the agony that our Saviour felt is as real as today beacause of the our love of the world."

by loving the world we are betraying the Lord. it made me think " do i love the world?" and " how many have chosen the world over God" the world will pass away one day and all its thing with it too. but God will never fade away.

Dear Lord, i dont want to love the world. i want to drop everything and follow you.

2009-02-14T08:48:00.000-08:00

I LOVE BRAD PITT TO BITS AND PIECES!

HE'S IS SOSOSO HOT AND CUTE

watched benjamin button on friday. it was fantastico! though the first part, brad was old and unhot. but when he became younger. i was grasping in the cinemaaaaaa. candies and aby and me were like really crazy over him.

we were like this...

aby: dione i would do anything just to hug him once! (cant believe aby said that!!)
candies: no! i would do anything to kiss him !

dione: i would to anything to marry him

aby was gonna die if she didnt snap a few pics of pitt so she took some.
so thankful she did. now i have his hot pictures

this is why we went nuttsy nutties. look at him! omg
i love you brad pitt!
i lovelove love love love love love love you with all my heart and soul

brenda should have been there. she probably die there cos her lungs wouldnt function properly when young brad appears on the screen.bren, you have to catch it
below are the pics is when brad is a teenager
i want to marry him

ps. okay i should stop being brad pitt crazy. i am starting to freak myself out. i cant be in love with a married old man, angelina jolie will probably kill me

2009-02-11T04:38:00.000-08:00

you know a few days ago we had this ready to eat meals the NS men food thing that came in a green packets, i know yuck the food was toatlly horrid. i know. fyi: they were packed 2007. so i was like eating food that were 2 years old. torture! i really pity the ns man. thank god! i am a female ahhah. thank god i is a girl.

school has been another idiot. 5 test this week. ok 2 more hang in there , dione.

this is what happens when you're pissed ,deprived of food(force to do a ws about the ns food), fed up with school, everyone basically turns psychotic.... like this.....

2009-02-11T03:53:00.000-08:00

i swear. that 50% of my water intake is converted into mucus. lately my bosy has been MASS PRODUCING exceedingly high levels of this disgusting piece of shit.i bet i can produce enough mucus in a month's time to flood china,thailand and maybe india if i am lucky.thank God it is not green or whatever man.i'll just die. i need tissuezz all the time. in the morning it is like i have a piece of tissue permanently plastered on my face. maybe i just need more vitamin c

2009-02-08T06:36:00.000-08:00

breakeven by The Script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok

I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm trying make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

2009-02-05T06:50:00.000-08:00

YAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

today was mama's bday. my dad bro mum me went to hotel mercure and had the most awesome buffet. the smoked salmon was heavenly! and bought a raspberry cake.

went home got the cake prepared and stuff. after we sang the birthday song, dad proudly gave mum a kiss and mum give dad a kiss back.( actually i order mum to kiss dad LOL mum's not into PDA)and mum's lipstick mark was on daddy's cheek SO CUTE LA. so old and so loving hehe.

ok i got a bloody shitty chem test tmr. gotta nerd right now

before i go this is for you guys. isn't it annoyingmy amusing? aby drew it nong nong ago

2009-02-04T05:52:00.000-08:00

this happened one day. in the canteen me mel can mandy were sitting down. eating hokkien mee.
i was super sleepy so....i asked mel to help me.

" mel, i am super sleppy can u make me a wake-up cheer plssss"
"okay ah i think must. must think one u know"

after a few minutes, mel said the cheer.

"hey ah hey hey! hey ah hey hey!
dione the monkey god pls come
awake!!!"

change the name say this cheer 3 times loudly, i mean really loudly in class and clap ur hands whenever u are sleepy. you' ll experience an awakeness you have neva eva experienced before.
try it and u will have peace forever.

2009-02-04T05:15:00.000-08:00

history test tmr. my ulcer cause by my annoying braces is killing me. i cant talk properly and i have another one on my tongue. unlucky manz. i talk like miss jaime now. GROSS.
i screw my emaths test today cos i was so sleepy. i feel like crying now. shits. O LEVELS IS COMING SOON!

on the brighterside, school is always crazy bananas funny. laughing at the random things.
laughing at jbox with candies. pasting stickers on mel. breaking into a song during lessons.
laughing relieves stress!

ps. brad pitt is so sexy. i wanna marry him.
i cant wait to watch the curious case of benjamin button

2009-02-03T04:03:00.000-08:00

i am so high now! after reading min blog and talking to candies sutanto online. And blocking and unblocking glen on msn.i cried laughing, rolled on the floor ten times over. omg sometimes i think my candies and i are such deranged retards. in fact most of my friends are sort psychologically unbalanced like mel, brenda, yea! we do such crazy insane stupid things. i cant post them here.

ps. crazy people rule!!!!
pss. shittttttttttttttttttt emaths and ss test tmr argh!!!!!!! nerds ruleszzzzxxxzzz ruleszzzxxxxxzz

ok i'll shut now seeee ya laterz

2009-02-02T07:05:00.000-08:00

i have 4 test this weeks whoo! it was suppose to be 5 but geo test was cancelled. And i am sky-high happy about it. man since when did i rejoice when there are 4 tests in a week. man i am deprived. i've no life. sec 4 life drives everyone insane nutsy. mel the most especially today lolol. i need a life.

2009-01-27T09:12:00.000-08:00

today had dinner with can germ mel huei min mandy frerry wenbin lay elgin at marina square ate at some jap restaurant called ryochi something the food was not bad. then took some pics. later everyone went home except me and mandy. we went to raffles city and ate ben & jerry hawhaw
and we saw something really gross. on our way back, on the train. there was this like couple about like mid 30s. u know the station at cityhall is super packed right. this annoying couple shared like one seat. the woman was sitting on her boyfriend's lap. omg pda man. the woman was like laughing and squirming about in his lap. which makes look everything so wrong. and the guy looked like he was in semi-heaven or something.uber gross! they did in front of everbody. totally oblivious to the people around. they have no sense of social ettiquette. they just book a hotel. police should really like fine couples like that.

2009-01-23T09:50:00.000-08:00

i am thinking of dropping my pure sciences. it just scares me to death that there was only one a1 for chem and one a1 for physics through out the whole cohort last year. and a few lucky a2s.
crap i am so not ready for this.i cant make this decision soon after cny! RRRWW! what if i get b3 for both sciences omg. shit i rather do combine and get a1. omg iam quite dumb in physics. and shitty chem spa is gonna probably pull my overall chem score L-O-W. bloody hellllllllll.

i feel so stressed about this damn thing. cos like pure science will open more doors for you in the future blahblah and so useful in jc. BUT i dont wanna go jc. i wanna go poly and do like a business course or something. so really pure science is really not a must here. but what if i do get banana 3 for combine science. omg i would rather do pure. the top student was puredropto combine. and like so many pure droppers got AAAAAAs for their combine.

what if i suddenly decided to not work in the business field and work with medicine and chemicals or become a dietitian. and i realise " oh crap i didnt take pure chem when i was 15 i guess im stuck with this shitty job i have ." and i am stuck with in the business field till the day i die.

MORONIC EGGS! whywhywhywhy does moe have to force us to make decision that will affect the course of our entire life at BLOODY 16 .

freaks. do i look like i know what i want in life? what i want in my future? im still young and having fun. i know shit about nothing. i cannot believe i cried that night thinking about dropping pure.. so so so lame and dumb i know . arghhh. pls give me some advice people.

ps. i got 69 for chem overall last year and 58 for physics. advise pls!

2009-01-09T02:35:00.000-08:00

i wanna get engaged

2009-01-09T01:31:00.000-08:00

I LOVE FRIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TGIF! i fell sick yesterday with like fever and a retarded funny-feeling throat and nose.
you have to know how i fell sick. it all started wednesday night. i was mugging for amaths reassessmt and i decided to take a break. so i went to the fridge and got some cranberry juice out to drink. then i realise like that i shouldnt be taking breaks since i had alot left to cover. so drank my cranberry juice faster.i overestimated the amt of juice my mouth can take in at one time and lifted my cup higher.my mouth couldnt take inthe juice fast enough so some of the juice splashed on my shirt and some went right into my nostrils! omg! when you have juice stuck in your nose pipe( whatever pipe you call it) you'll feel weird and funny.i had this 'thingy' stuck between my nose and my brain- you know that feeling when food go down the wrong tube and after awhile i couldnt blow my nose properly and my throat became funny and kinda stuck. not long the fever came. then my face flushed a beyooteeful scarlet and then i felt freezing cold. LOLOLOL so stupid right. fell sick because of cranberry juice. joke of the year lol

2009-01-02T22:34:00.000-08:00

2009 has just begun and i brought my furry birds ( pen) to school! HAHAH brenda and aby
was so amuse by it. my birds made friends with brenda's pretty unicorn hahaa

i recently read some stuff about being happy and finding happiness
so this post is kinda long so bare with me okay

according to everyone, world leaders,economic experts, and other intellectual pple. 2009 is a roller coaster with the economic depression, pay cuts, retrenchment, yadayada and it is the year of the Os( thats for me)
so really everyone is rather sure of what will happen in 2009. they cringe. everyone is scared shitless whether or not they still can keep their jobs. everyone is generally affected like kids are worried if they will get lesser pocket money or not, parent are worried if they still can provide for their family, the unretrenched are worried if they can find a decent job or not..etc. And generally pple all over the whole are scared, fearful, in pain, unhappy, disappointed etc...
and they are desperately trying very hard to find "happiness"- which is for the depression to be over and other depresion-related unpleasant things to just go away, in the amidst of all the crazy chaos and depression. everyone is wishing for depression to go away before 2010.
it is kinda impossible but still they hope. why do you still hope you know there's only a close to zero chance it might happen??
i'm not saying we should all be pessimistic and sulk at everything unpleasant but why hope when you know you're going to be disappointed and crushed like rubbish in the incinerator plant.

why not focus on being less unhappy than "more happy" because focussing on being happy is just begging for disappointment and resentment. It is like focussing on being skinny, there is no such thing as " perfectly skinny" because there's always going to be a "skinnier".
sad people can nevery be happy enough. poor people can never be rich enough.
happiness is like a concept. concept are just concepts. they arent real. And you know you cant achieve something that isn't real.
So if you cant achieve pure true happiness why not focus on your "unhappiness" instead. Like think about all the things that make you unhappy and do something about it- and fixing the the things that is within your control.
you cant make O levels exam disappear for good but, you can study very hard for it and ace it and kick its ugly baboon butt back to England ( mel , haha)

you could get rid of all the clothes that make you think/feel ugly or fat. You could spent more time with people truly love and appreciate, and spent less time with fake friends. You could get rid of the mess of junk in your room that is unsightly and bothers the crap out of you. You could spent more time alone. You could tell a person who annoys the crap out of you that he or she is very annoying and to stop being annoying. You could go to church more often and regularly. You could spent more time reading your favourite book.
Just do it. if we work on being less unhappy, we will be happier than we were before isn't it? To be less unhappy. Isn't that what we ask for? it's all relative.

so take that, 2009.

2008-12-30T09:55:00.000-08:00

i miss bloggingggggggggggggggggggggggggg! OISDHIFDFIHSIFSNDVJEJNK
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i miss typinggggggggggg!
i miss my keyboard! bjbjdkfnkdgkglnklfndkflnsfnsklfnlk
i havent been online for so nong I MISS YOU LAPTOP!
I LOVE YOU I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU. <333333333333333333

omg goodnesssssssssss its the 31 DECEMBER already. i think about how much pain and other gross thing i have next year( tmr!!! bloody soooon huh) i feel like , curling up into a ball and hide in my wardrobe and hibernate ...... but i dont think that''s gonna ever happen

no! positive thoughts here , chin up
next year is sweet SIXTEEN and i think 2009 is gonna be sky-high fineeee

today went to mel's house and it was super bfy with all the Christmas lights. we wanted to go to the rooftop to star-gaze but the annoying pple locked the door. they double locked it with a padlock some more, like there some hidden treasure up there. so we used bobby pins and tried to unlock it. but the padlock was like a good one so we couldnt aiyaya. it was really funny we were all sneaky, in a spy-ey way like some secret spy. we had to be all quiet and stuff cos it was poast 12 already and have to constantly avoid cameras LOLOL

then aftere cabbed home, and i was talking to mandy about some annoying person.
and i was like " omg i feeling throwing him on the floor and jump and step on him until he dies or vomit blood"
and the cabbie man looked at me in this really freaked out way and said" wahh miss you are very fierce" HAHAHHA wished i could take a foto and post it up

thank mel and candies for the presents! yay all so useful! mel got me a webcam hahah. i can like web cam nowwwwww hawhaw. candies got me a alarm clock. winne the pooh one . so cute i can use it to wake me up man. i am always lateeee.
yeah tmr meeting huei min and mandy at plaza sing for lunchie!

CIAOOOO

ps. i wanna see B again!!

2008-12-24T00:06:00.000-08:00

one more day to Christmas! are you feeling all christmas-y already? but do people really know what Christmas is all about? really? most of us think Christmas is the time to spend with your love ones and give and receive presents.And it is the birthday of Christ. And it is when shopping sales are to die for. That was what i knew about Christmas years ago.

sometimes i wonder what would happen if Christ had not die for us,sinners. what would the world be like. i shudder. sometimes i think about when the world will end and how many may not see the Light. It is depressing and how many people around me have not accepted Jesus. And how many will be save? i honestly dont know. makes me feel like crying.

recently i found this website www.foggindustries.com/bible it is like an online Bible. it features a different passage from the Bible everyday. it is really useful for people who will die without the internet.

:D im going there whenever iam online. and there's also another website www.dailybread.com i heard about this website from 2 ladies behind on the bus. i think it must be a sign from God. because i dont read the Bible everyday. i get distratced by other things like tv and then im too tired to read anything and i hit the bed. then the guilt settles in. and i feel horrid and terrible. i am gonna include read the Bible everyday in my new year resolution list.

Lay Up Treasures in Heaven

“Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

“The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light, but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!

“No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money. ( how true!)

2008-12-22T23:02:00.000-08:00

you what. i went up and they were not home. only the maid was there.she said they are having some renovation and it cant be helped. oh well they start at 9 and end at 6. rotten eggs i guess i'll study somewhere esle.i cnat take the noise. i am going out!

2008-12-22T21:21:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!
i know it's kinda early. here are somepics i promise to upload.
my neighbour iss absolutely annoying okay . that stupid person live in the apartment directly above me and he or she is like having some sort of renovation. they start this hammering sound at freak 9 in the morning! WTH!! SMACK THEM. i need sleep and it goes on to like now like 2 plus. i am gonna stomp up to their house after i finish this post and "talk"to the psycho maniacs. they better not ruin my sleep tmr and on christmas day or i will shave ugly blad patches their annoying gray cat !

yes i can be that cruel if deprvied denied sleeeepp. RAWRR.
only mandy knows what i am going through
well here i go come back and post what happen
bye for now

2008-12-16T05:59:00.000-08:00

HIya! people sorry i ahve not been posting for a long time was pretty busy . anyway i have pictures from batam. batam was good god except somemes the food was ugh and the housekeeping was also ugh but the choir really learnt a lot. we mustnt let miss pua next year!! sorry about the pranks calls you receive guys while you guys were sleeping. i will upload the pics someother time . people who tagged on my tagboard asking me to link them, i am so super duper sorry i will link you guys soon i promise! starnia, calista, emilia soon okays:D

tmr is 2e3 chalet! yay food food lots of good foods okay i m gonna do homework nowzz sianxzzz
UGHH talking to mandy and huei min and send mel batam fotos online now we doing girlie stuff now hahahah :D planning games for tmr chalet